I know that I have absolutely zero interest in pursuing or participating in anything BDSM. The whole idea fills me with panic and horror. When I first learned about these practices, at least in this lifetime, I thought it was so very sad and distressing that anyone would voluntarily want to participate, especially publicly.
This is a fascinating topic to ponder. Not long ago I attended a workshop where, at one point, we were testing our reactions to various types of energy and touch. As I grabbed my own wrist and squeezed, I had an immediate reaction of panic at being restrained, even though I was in total control of the touch. The overwhelming discomfort I felt surprised me, but I realized there must be a connection here with why most BDSM practices have always turned me off to the point of shutting me down completely. This was definitely a trauma response, though I have not experienced anything in this lifetime to trigger it. It could very well be past life trauma rising to the surface. This will require more thought, for sure.
I know that I have absolutely zero interest in pursuing or participating in anything BDSM. The whole idea fills me with panic and horror. When I first learned about these practices, at least in this lifetime, I thought it was so very sad and distressing that anyone would voluntarily want to participate, especially publicly.
This is a fascinating topic to ponder. Not long ago I attended a workshop where, at one point, we were testing our reactions to various types of energy and touch. As I grabbed my own wrist and squeezed, I had an immediate reaction of panic at being restrained, even though I was in total control of the touch. The overwhelming discomfort I felt surprised me, but I realized there must be a connection here with why most BDSM practices have always turned me off to the point of shutting me down completely. This was definitely a trauma response, though I have not experienced anything in this lifetime to trigger it. It could very well be past life trauma rising to the surface. This will require more thought, for sure.